Are you overwhelmed with the hustle of everyday life, feeling crazy stressed most days and exhausted by your own problems?
So you push forward, distracting yourself from the chaos by jumping on social media, working yourself to death, running the kids around, or indulging in food, alcohol, or other vices?
Listen, I get it. I’ve been there.
Hi there, I’m Randi. Full-time mom, wife, recovering worrier, and control freak. I’ve battled depression, anxiety, substance abuse, orthorexia, and other addictions for years. But honestly, I was just surviving the world’s way, looking for answers in all the wrong places.
That was before 2020 though, before I surrendered to God and gave my life fully to Him. When I did, God took my half-empty glass and overflowed it with His kindness, mercies, and never-ending love. It didn’t matter that I was broken, because I am made whole with Him. And you can be too.
The question is…will you let Him?
How I can help you
I help those seeking recovery find freedom from the negative self talk and painful repetitive cycles, by shining a light on some of the deepest inner struggles we face today, such as:
- Depression and anxiety
- Overwhelming stress and burnout
- Addiction and obsessive behaviors
My mission is to help you feel whole, confident, joyous, and VICTORIOUS as we build a strong foundation of faith, kick old mindset habits to the curb, refocus on family, and take action for a healthy, happy recovery.
So if you feel like your life is a hot mess, nothing is going right, and you just need someone to walk with you…please pull up a chair and stay a while.
God has a purpose, and a reason you’re here.
For I know the plans I have for you, plans to give you HOPE and a FUTURE.
a Testimony of Faith
In the past, I put my faith in pretty much everything except God. I placed my faith in my diet, health, yoga, work, kids, my husband, and even new age practices that led me further into deception. I kept thinking that if I just got to the next “thing” or pushed myself through responsibilities that it would make me happy. When it didn’t, I resorted to control, or tried to escape through scrolling online, shopping, or detaching with substances. Then I’d feel guilty and throw myself back into work or the kids. It was a vicious cycle that always led me to a place of darkness and anxiousness.
But in 2020 everything changed.
You remember that year, right?
Well, for me, my anxiety and stress went through the roof. I was working myself to death as a means to cope with what was happening. I lost friends, my husband left his job, and we got into a car accident that left me with some serious emotional trauma. By the end of that year, I felt pretty broken. I’d looked everywhere for validation and hope, but it all had led to a dead-end, albeit with more anxiety, more depression, and more stress. All my efforts were worthless. They came up null and void.
Then, one early November morning, I sat in my car in the parking lot of a church. I stared at the old steeple, which looked like a hazy beacon in the mid-morning sunlight. And I thought about all the things that had transpired that year, and all the moments that had led up to this. Anger about the past. Shame about things I’d done. The fruitless efforts that left me more lost than when I started. The life I was currently leading. I had to ask myself some serious questions.
What am I doing?
Where am I going?
Why am I trying to do this alone?
I started crying.
Right then and there, I prayed to God to please change my life. And I said, “I don’t know where this is going but I want to trust you.”
I decided to give this church thing a chance, even though I felt like I was going to catch on fire just walking through the doors. But it was worth a shot.
And let me tell you– ever since that day, God has given me SO much. I came to God with an ounce of faith and He gave me everything. He gave me a new heart, a new life, and a new purpose. All those years of feeling insecure and searching for peace has been replaced with a solid foundation and a real refuge I can count on. I’m standing on the solid rock.
And yeah, even though God is still working on me, I know He’s laid a special direction on my heart. As someone who has struggled so many years with addiction and mental unrest, I know that this is the ministry I want to serve.
I want you to know that there is peace on the other side.
There is hope and future, with Jesus.
Not perfect, just forgiven
Now, you may be under the impression that my life is a bit “heavy” (to steal a line from Marty McFly), although I can assure you I’m not a total downer to be around. Life is something I try to soak in, like a kitchen sponge, and I want to capture all those feel-good moments, even when the enemy is trying to convince me to focus on all the bad ones.
So here’s some bonus things about me that don’t have emotional weight:
- I’m a devoted wifey and mom of 3 children. I have 2 dogs that won’t. stop. barking. (But have the best cuddles.)
- The older I get, the more sweatpants sound like a good idea.
- Converse are the only sneakers I’ll wear.
- The Cure (enough said).
- Definitely not a type A personality, but I live in what I like to call “organized chaos.”
- I think Terminator 2 is a very plausible outcome and the robots must be stopped (but keep it down or they’ll hear you).
- Indoor plants make me happy.
- Comedy is THE BEST and necessary for survival. If you don’t have a sense of humor, we probably won’t mesh well.
Honestly though, the most important thing I want you to take away from here is this:
God has your back and he won’t leave you. Jesus is the real deal. And if God can forgive me, for all the crazy, messed up, illogical mistakes I’ve made (and continue to make), He can forgive you. Not only that, but God promises that He does not change (Hebrews 13:8), He is a refuge (Psalm 46:1), and He will send you a comforter (John 14:26). For those that accept Him, and surrender, you will be granted everlasting life (John 3:16).
So please, if you’re struggling, take some time in prayer. Continue to check back on this site as I’m adding new blogs and resources as much as possible. And be sure to sign up below for notifications on when the podcast will launch!
Thank you for taking the time to read about Broken to Blessed. I pray it blesses you.